Inconsolable.

Who are you now, are you still the same, or did you changed somehow? And when im looking back, how we were young and stupid, do you remember that? Now look at me, instead of moving on, i refused to see, that i keep coming back, I'm stuck in this moment that wasn't meant to last. Though everything's said and done, but still no, words from you. I'm a house of cards in the hurricane, a reckless ride in the pouring rain, It's out of control, but i can't let go.






BSB sings it for me :)

Sick of Comparing.

No one will be the best, there's always someone might be a lil better than you, that you wouldn't know.       Sometimes things won't work the way you want, doesn't mean you're better in that way. Comparing might give us motivation to do better, but comparing without any sense doesn't do anything beside sarcasm and demoralizing people. It's like beating a blind guy in a reading competition, does it even make any fucking sense to you? I hope you will stop this ridiculous action by mean or not in purpose, i know you are better in some way, i know it right, but please, not in this way.

Work.

I had been working for the past month, at a shop in Times Square. Well you might think this is kinda late for me to talk bout it, but i sees it as a period of good observation. :)  So, it's a I-Clay shop, literally a centre to learn modeling clay kinda stuff, if you cant get an idea of it, den imagine PlayDoh, that's about the thing i'm dealing in the shop. My boss is a Korean, his wife is the teacher in the centre. They are lovely and very caring. There's always pleasant smile on their faces that make people feel very comfortable. First day was just probation, i get to know the products and contents, and those Do's and Dont's, and the second day im all alone in the shop -.- it's kinda scary, but im getting used to it.



My boss treat me well, she often treat me food but i know im working, so no -.- but thanks :D and even if i work less hours, they still pay more than i work, i often get 1hour bonus :) I feel very comfortable working with 'em. The kids that come by every week for class definitely made my day, having a lot of fun playing with 'em, every single one just look cute and adorable :D this environment do me fine, but i struggle a lil from boredom, but it's okay, i can overcome it.




I'm gonna voice this out the last, just to let it looks not important and does not relate to my job >< that is, oh my, my boss's daugther is sho pretty D: she lives here even since her family moved here.  
She speaks Korean, and i gotta tell you, its so nice -.- and she know Chinese from her class :D nice to meet you there. :')

SIENmester Booo-reak.

It happens that my semester break started early because i finished my exam sooner by date, and that is about 3 4 weeks before new semester take over. Finally i can rest yes? Yeah, but what am i gonna do in these few weeks? -.- i was so bored that i just log in to Facebook and literally just stared at it -.- den i started to play Maple, yes, again =.= and the only thing i can think about when im bored, is FOOD -.- so i just eat and eat and eat and eat and eat and eat, and yes eat and eat. And hang out with friends for lunch, yes lunch we eat and eat and eat and eat and eat, then gathering in friend's house for BBQ, yes eat and eat and eat and eat. That's all what i had been doing since the break. Man give me ideas on how to spend another one week from now before school reopens -.- i wanna know my final exams' result by then !! i wanna know how i did yeah :D

人不完美，人视人完美之处才完美。

There's this person i met this year, knew for quite a time, 2 months i guess. We do everything like friend, u know, chat, hangout, and wad so ever, we enjoyed it? Well i dont know, maybe, maybe not. It's fine between us, until when it starts to pick up on me. All she ever mentioned is just how bad am I, what I did was wrong, the imperfections I had, I think she named it all. Like my mother yeah? No, worse than that. I dont know what's wrong with her, friends talk as a group, but she just pick up on me. i dont know what the fuck i did wrong, why you just like to do this over and over again? It pissed me off so much, that i have to stop talking to her. If there's something wrong with me on how i treat a friend, i wont have best buds that i knew for 3 4 years. If the problem is with me, do YOU, personally think, that my friends will stick to me for so long? No, because they knew, even how sarcastic am I, i'm still gonna be their helping hand. It's too late for you to realise, because i aint giving a rat furry ass anymore, chao outside peeps, and you motherfucker < >

Basic Culinary.

Just did my exam :D honestly, HONESTLY ! i did practised for chicken cuts only, others i did not, soo, im not that confident to score it D: i did my vege cuts very well, and i have to ask for the names seconds before evaluation -.- silly me but it ended up well :D chef is very satisfied with it, and im happy. and the tourne potaTO -.- how can be something so hard to do D: i did it last, because i dont want to waste time on it but still, it turned out to be nice, i was like WTF D: it is so small and not in proper shape, yet chef say its nice = = and then the omelette and mayo, omelette was nice, but my mayo, i didnt not put vinegar in it, because stupid Jacob used it all == knowing i will fail it, i do it the last also. Mine is just with a yolk, oil, mustard and some salt, thats it. It turned out nice too WTF, i didnt taste it, because i have raw egg phobia -.- my omelette was ruined at a time but i manage to repair it, so it was nice too. Then my chicken cuts, my most confident one = = i struggle with it for about 1hour, and the cuts i did was not that good, i left some bones in it. Soo, overall all it was perfect, except for the chicken. I was dang happy bout it, but there's more or less something to do with my luck, i knew it, i just knew :D

SPM

just got my result today, well 1A only, english ^^ not that bad for others, got some Bs and Cs but i think its alright, my parents think its alright too, although they expect more than this, like everyone parents will, but they knew im not those nerdy kinda guy that will study like hell no matter its SPM or what :P Then i went Pavilion for lunch, in TGIF, and Unknown for movie with my friends, had a lotsa fun, at least today got no excuses for all the buddies to skip this time gathering -.- what's done was done, life's going on. I don't feels good watching people showing their fucked up face, just because SPM result. Just get over it man, instead of going home and emo like a douchebag, why not think about the next step that make things better? Anyhow, SPM's done, now im worrying bout tomorrow's practical exam, despite its my favourite, but im not sure i can score it anot, but i will try ma best ^^ chicken to fish and eggs to carrots, its time to dress pretty :D chao outside peeps < >